Monday, April 7, 2014

More Than a Hobby: Photography

I've been doing photography professionally for a while, but realized that my friends and loved ones may not know much about what I do or why I do it. Thus, I've decided to delve a little deeper into what is now not only a passion of mine, but what is sometimes profitable as well.

I've never really told anyone why I started taking photos, and for a long time, I don't think I knew exactly why either. I always had cameras growing up. There's no accurate way to keep track, but I'm pretty sure I had somewhere between five and ten film cameras before I was 13. Cameras were a really cool toy for me, and I always had to have a different one. The first camera I remember was a 10mm (I think) camera that used a really skinny, awkward-looking film roll. It was super cool because it had the Super Mario Bros. logo on it, though I still don't know what that had to do with taking photos. Then there was the slew of 35mm cameras I went through. Some were plain, hand-wound and had no flash. A couple of them were fancy, and had automatic rewind and built-in flash. I discovered that I loved taking photos with those, even if they were just photos of my dog, or my sisters, or even sometimes the tip of my finger covering the lens...

Then, things got VERY fancy and I got a Polaroid iZone camera. These babies were awesome. Before phones even had cameras on them (or color screens, for that matter), these were the cutting edge of photo-sharing technology. I could take a photo, and INSTANTLY pull it out of the camera. A couple of minutes later, I had a tiny, fully-developed photo. Some of the film even had adhesive on the back, so you could use the photos as stickers. Really, these things were amazing, even though the film was so expensive my dad put a limit on how much he would buy for me.

These things were so cool the BRITTANY FREAKIN' SPEARS used them! And for the record, she was taking selfies BEFORE it was cool.
These cameras hold a special place in my heart for another reason as well. On my wedding day, my dad wasn't there to walk me down the aisle. So, I took a page out of the book of Pinterest and walked down the aisle with a photo charm of him on my wedding bouquet. The photo I put in the charm was an iZone photo taken shortly before he passed away. I kept it almost 10 years, and it still hadn't faded, preserving his memory so perfectly between those strips of brightly colored paper.


The other photo beneath his (the second charm in the photo above) is a picture of me, taken by a dear friend of mine about 10 short minutes before I found out I no longer had a father here on earth. In a way, it was the last photo I had of the little girl that had a daddy, the one that was so happy and innocent, the one that would one day walk down the aisle with her father. So, I took that girl, and her daddy, down the aisle. I don't know that it's significance would make sense to anyone but me, but really, my opinion is the only one that mattered here. My daddy didn't know it at the time, but by buying me that camera, he ensured he would be with me on the most important day of my life so far. Thanks, iZone camera :)

Somewhere around high school, digital cameras became more affordable for the average Joe. My first digital camera was a present from my Aunt Pat. It had no display screen, and was (I think) about a megapixel in quality. However, it was still REALLY cool. I took a lot of photos of my labrador, Lilly, and other random things around the house. There was no flash, so I had to make sure I used the light right to get photos that weren't too dark. The only surviving photo I can find is this one:


Again, taking selfies before it was cool.

Eventually, I saved (and saved and saved and saved) and bought myself a nice digital camera. It was a Fuji Film FinePix, and I'm pretty sure it's one of the best I've ever owned. I got a whopping 255MB memory card with it, which seem laughable now that I'm shooting with 32G and using half the card in a shoot. What this camera taught me is that it's not the quality of your camera that matters, or how expensive it it, but how you use light. None of the following photos are edited at all, and are exactly as I took them about 7 years ago. Some of my favorite photos from my Fuji include:

A real, very pretty flower.

I thought this tree looked like it had an open wound. 

Some of my first experiments with long exposure and a disco ball.

Another awesome flower.

I'm not sure how I did this, as the ceiling above the light was perfectly lit as well. But hey, I'll take what I can get!

Another experiment with long exposure. Except that the longest exposure I could get was about 1 second, so I just waived a light around and hoped for the best.

Someone left perfectly good beads on the ground, so I took a photo because of the lively contrast to the grayness of the sidewalk.
The photos above came out of what I now refer to as my "artistic emo phase", something which very few people know I even went through, and is now a time I almost laugh at. There was a time when I was an adolescent suffering from depression. I lost my father in Jr. High, but it wasn't until a couple of years later that I really started to struggle. Though undiagnosed, there were enough signs for me to know that I needed something to fight the depression creeping up on me. I found an outlet through art. I drew, even though I had never really drawn before. I wrote prose and poetry for hours in the park because I found it to be therapeutic. Photos also provided solace from the sinister thoughts that crept into my mind, and allowed me to capture my world from my own perspective, and no one else's. I fought the dark through the light coming through the lens. Photos allowed me to slow down, look at the fine details, and really think about all of the beauty that life had to offer- even when life didn't seem to have value.  

I'm so glad that I took all the photos I did in high school. From football games, to band competitions, to tennis and dive, I have those memories preserved forever. Every once in a while I look back on Facebook at the underwater selfies we took, or the silly photos of all the band kids wreaking havoc at Disneyland. Scrolling through the photos reminds me of so many happy memories and brings them back to life. I hope to continue taking photos as I go on in life so that I can always go back. When I'm sad, I can look at photos of my wedding day and my mood instantly brightened. When I feel like I need a confidence boost, I can look at certain photos and I'm reminded that I am indeed beautiful. I don't say that to be conceded, but hubby tells me so every day, so it much be true :)

Some more recent photos...






Photos aren't just pictures for me. As they moved from lifeline, to freedom, to passion, to income, I've discovered that my style and equipment will continue to change. Despite this, one thing will always remain true:

Photography to me will never be "just a hobby".

Thursday, April 3, 2014

Sassy's Got a Brand New Bag!


Hopefully, you caught the oldies reference. If not, it would suffice to say that... *wait for it*

I GOT A JOB!

I'm lucky enough to have been employed since graduation (not something every student enjoys fresh-out-of-college). However, employment has been a bit of a roller coaster since I graduated. It's been a little something like this:

SUMMER EMPLOYMENT AT THE COLLEGE OF WOOSTER!!! FULL TIME PAYCHECK!

End of summer employment...

On to work at the airsoft store!
Working at a store about my hobby? Yes, please!


Sassy applies for Job #1. They decided to hire internally :(


Airsoft store is awesome, BUT part-time isn't paying the bills... what to do?

Awesome Boss: "Hey, want to work at my wood shop too?"

STEADY INCOME! YES!

But these days are really long...


SASSY APPLIES FOR JOB #2!!! 
aaaaaand she's the second to top pick for the position... which means no new job for Sally



But these days are STILL really long...

Sally applies for ANOTHER job. 
THREE WHOLE interviews later, denied. Job wasn't a good fit. 




and then the airsoft store closed...


Awesome Boss: "Want to work full time at the wood shop?"

---------> Full time job = FULL TIME PAYCHECK BABY! Days are shorter, this is cool!

But the commute is still 60 miles a day round-trip. Poop.

At least there's awesome things at the wood shop, like:

The View
WOOLY BEARS!!! I love wooly bears...
Roasting weenies over an open flame!

SASSAFRAS COMMITS TO WORKING AT THE SHOP FOR AN EXTENDED PERIOD OF TIME


Things settle for a while... then...


suddenly...


BAM! OTHERJOBCALLSSASSYFORANINTERVIEW!!!!





It's a perfect job for her and they decide to make an offer!!!!


Boy am I glad this roller coaster is coming to a halt! My new job is with Graphic Publications Inc., a local company that puts together publications that further local business and provides advertising and marketing services. Specifically, I will be a digital sales specialist in charge of extending the reach of our digital products (websites, videos, etc.) by forming relationships with business owners in the area and offering them our services according to their needs. Some REALLY cool things about my new job include:

-Salary, plus commission
-Full benefits
-I'll be working in the same building as hubby (which is awesome since we have one car at the moment)
-They provide a computer and cell phone
-I get to work WITH PEOPLE and I'll never be stuck sanding by myself all day ever again :)
-I get to do some teaching and training others as well!

The list of awesome things about my new job goes on, but I am SO excited to finally be starting a career. I had been praying for a break from the grind, something that I enjoyed doing, and God answered that prayer. I'm so excited for the things to come, and all the new relationships I get to develop. Monday starts a new beginning, and I couldn't be more stoked :) 

Sunday, February 9, 2014

Figuring It Out: Health (No More Excuses)

So apparently part of this whole "adult" thing is staying healthy and taking care of yourself. Now sometimes it seems that finding time to work, pay the bills, spend time with hubby, and doing photography on the side is about all I can handle.

Lately, physical activity (like running up and down hills at the airsoft field) makes me feel out of breath and pathetic. In college, I had plenty of Intramural sports and walking around campus to keep me active. I also had a free to use (well, part of my $49,900 tuition), brand new gym facility at my disposal. Thus, it was fairly easy to keep (somewhat) fit.

These days, there is no gym 150 yards from my door. I don't have healthy food already prepared and waiting for me (like in Lowry, even though "healthy" just meant chicken breast and the salad bar). I have to make fitness a priority in my life or it's just not going to happen. Recently, I have decided that I'm not making anymore excuses.


No more "I leave the house at 6am and don't get home until 7 or 8pm, so I don't have time."

I now leave the house at 4:45 to work out before work. It's painful sometimes, but it actually makes me feel better the rest of the day.

No more "But MAN that soda would be refreshing right now! I'll just have a glass."

I broke my addiction and haven't had soda for about 3 weeks now. It doesn't sound like much, but for the first few days it was REALLY hard to say no.

No more putting sugar in my coffee or tea.

Stevia is natural, has 0 calories, and doesn't taste like cancer.

No more eating as much as I want.

Because if I'm going to get my lazy buns up at 4am to get in a workout, I sure as HECK am not going to waste it by eating junk, or more than my stomach was ever meant to hold.

I know I'm going to mess up. I'm going to eat more than I should once in a while. I might even cave and have a chocolate bar for breakfast (not that I did this morning or anything.......) but I'm going to try to do it right. 

I've realized that, until this point, I've always talked about getting fit, being more healthy. Sometimes I'll even give up soda for a week, or go on a few walks. However, I haven't given it more than half an effort. Recently, I think something recently clicked:

Major change requires major effort. 

Until I actually apply myself and give it my all, no significant change is going to happen.

So I've been applying myself, and so far, I've lost 7 lbs! I've had more endurance while playing airsoft, felt better at work (which requires a lot of physical strength), and been more energetic throughout the day. Small things have begun to happen that show me my hard work is paying off- I'm wearing my belt a notch smaller. Water is much tastier than it used to be. I've been able to wake up and get out of bed easier.

I know I'm no where close to where I want to be, but if I keep up this effort, I believe it will pay off. I just can't wait to see the results :)


Thursday, January 16, 2014

The Most Important Lesson I Have Ever Learned

There are many lessons I've learned in this life-- always say your prayers, leave early when the weather is bad, don't leave chocolate in your pocket (especially not M&Ms--- not that I know that one from experience or anything...), etc. But there's one lesson that I've learned that continues to stay with me, and that I hope I never forget. There's a reason why it's cliché, why we've heard it a thousand times, and why it is still repeated anytime we're told to be thankful for what we have:

Cherish the loved ones you have today, because they could be gone tomorrow. 

This is something we often think we hear, but we really don't get until we lose someone we love. I know that it's something I'm still learning, even though I've been battered with loss of loved ones more than once. The incident that really made me learn my lesson was the death of my father, ten years ago to the day.

My Daddy was a constant in my life. He had limited office hours and worked from home a lot, so he was always around. I was definitely a "daddy's girl". He never had sons, but I feel as though I certainly filled some of the more stereotypical parts of the role. I would ask him to teach me how to use all of his tools, we threw the nerf football in the yard when he felt ok (back problems sometimes hindered normal physical activity), and I played sports. One thing remained the same, no matter what we did though- I loved spending time with my Daddy.

I remember the last interaction I had with him. We were engaging in our nightly ritual of watching TV together, my Daddy in his big chair, and me sitting on the arm curled up next to him. The shows were generally watched were somewhat violent, and not necessarily intended for a just-turned-13-year-old (for which Daddy received some scowling from Mom). Some of our favorites were Walker, Texas Ranger and Law and Order. We were discussing my concert scheduled for that Saturday. It was for jazz band, and I was going to perform my first solo in front of an audience. Normally he didn't attend my concerts because the metal chairs were hard on his back, but he was going to make this one. He was even going to bring my grandma. Needless to say, he never made it. 

I came home from school the next day and he was gone. He had a massive heart attack in his sleep. 

Gone in an instant, without warning.

There are no words for the amount of shock, pain, and surprise, that comes with the instantaneous loss of a such a huge part of your existence. I had always planned on Daddy being there, on him watching me grow up. And now, he wasn't going to experience any of that.

I was so sure he was going to plan on seeing me solo that weekend.

I hoped to make varsity tennis one day, and see him sitting on the sideline during a match.

I imagined him seeing me walk at my high school graduation, and at my college graduation.

I knew that, like every little girl, my Daddy would walk me down the aisle one day.

I even took for granted the jingle of the change in his pockets as he lumbered down the hall.

Well I didn't make the concert that weekend either. In a sweet gesture of condolence my band mates wore black armbands. I did make varsity tennis, but he never came to a match. He wasn't at my high school or college graduation. I put a charm with his picture on my wedding bouquet in his memory, but it was my wonderful, amazing mother who whisked her third daughter (me) down the aisle to the man of her dreams.

After 10 years, I still miss him every single day. We take most of our blessings for granted without even realizing it. Our last words to each other were, thankfully, loving. I don't know how I would handle it if I hadn't kissed him goodnight that night. Now, whenever I'm leaving someone I love, I always make sure to say "I love you", because I know in the back of my mind that I may not see them again. Maybe I'm paranoid, but I like to think that I'm just appreciative, and aware of the realities that face us in this life. I'm so thankful for all of the sweet memories I have of him, and that he got to see his little girl become a teenager. He taught me a lot while he was with us, but he also taught me the most important lesson I've ever learned. Again...

Cherish the loved ones you have today, because they could be gone tomorrow. 


I love you forever, Daddy. Rest in peace.


Wednesday, January 1, 2014

Figuring it Out: Money

Money is something that everyone, at one point or another, has struggled with. Everyone has to deal with money, whether they love it or hate it. The unfortunate part is that some of us are not as good with their money as others. The interesting thing about money is that we all know what we should do with it, but we don't do as we know we should! I heard a message in church a month or so back, and the pastor stated an age old truth that seems to get me every time.

"The wise man and the foolish man both see trouble coming. It is the wise man who takes steps to avoid trouble, and the foolish man who stays the course."

... or something like that...

Anyway, money is SO easy to be foolish with it's crazy. With all of the temptations constantly surrounding us, and advertising permeating every corner of our existence (Facebook, Google searches, billboards, telemarketers, YouTube, yada yada yada), it's easy to see why we want to max out our credit cards.

In a culture where status is determined by what you drive, what you wear, how big your house is, and what logo is plastered all over the purse your carrying, spending almost seems mandatory. To earn respect from others, we're tempted to buy it. We're encouraged from a young age to chase the American dream, no matter what the cost, even if it's beyond our means.

As a result, Hubby and I have embarked on a money-saving journey, attempting to cut corners and reduce our cost of living where we can. By talking to more experienced grown-ups and reading a lot of books written by people who know stuff about money, I've gathered some tips that have been helpful to me and (hopefully) might be helpful to you! Here we go!

Budget, Budget, Budget

I think this is the part that is the most helpful, yet is enjoyed the least. I've found that money only comes up short when you're surprised. Bills don't "just come up" if you plan for them ahead of time. If you know how much you make, and you know how much you spend, you won't be surprised and you'll always know where your money is going. 

Save, Save, Save

As much as we may plan ahead, life does occasionally surprise us with things that we can't plan on--- a flat tire, a clogged sewer for which we have to pay the plumber, the fridge breaks, etc. Typically it's those BIG things that break or go wrong that are the biggest surprises, and the ones we're often least prepared for. Just as we can budget for the known (water bill, car payment, etc.), we can also budget for the unknown by having an emergency fund.

If you're a follower of Dave Ramsey, you know that the first thing he says to do is save $1000. This way, while you're on your way to paying down credit cards and other debt, you aren't set back by having to put that new fridge or tire on plastic. Personally, even since we've just saved a few hundred dollars, I have felt much more secure knowing we have something to fall back on. A couple of emergencies depleted our savings a couple of months ago, so when we had no buffer I was always stressing about it. The piece of mind I get for putting money in the bank is well worth the pain of not spending our hard-earned money.

Buy in Bulk

While it might seem counterintuitive to spend more money to save money, it does work over time. Lately, I've been stocking up on the groceries that are on sale and, as a result, have seen a reduction in price on my meals. I also have to buy less of the things we need week-to-week. It may not seem like we're saving much up front, but saving a little on several different things really adds up. 

For example, we just bought a 275 load box of detergent for $12.99 (normally $25.99). If we bought the 150 oz. (90 load) jumbo Tide liquid detergent from Walmart, it would be $15.97. The box will last us about three times longer than the Tide, and it was about three dollars cheaper! So instead of paying almost 18 cents a load, I'm paying less than 5 cents per load. 

In a society of instant gratification, we would rather buy something we don't need at 50% off than pay more up front for something we know we'll use, even if it saves us money in the long run. 

Don't Tempt Yourself

I believe the hardest part of being smart with our money is actually doing what we plan on doing. Temptation is around every corner, and down every sale aisle. At the grocery store, I make sure I go with a list and buy only what is on the list. Granted, sometimes I'm bad and buy chips and salsa when I don't need them, but I spend waaaay less than when I go without a plan. Browsing in stores "just to look around" is also pretty dangerous. Some can actually go into a store and not buy anything, others come out with a new wardrobe before they can say,"Oh look it's on clearance!" You know your level of self-control, so use that knowledge to keep yourself away from situations where you know you'll spend money.

Use Cash

It sounds a little silly, especially when technology has gifted us with the convenience of a debit card. However, when we use cash, there is a tangible, very real sense of how much we're spending. There's no delay in when things post to your account, so the gas you got three days ago can't sneak up on you. I also find it a little easier to budget when I can put cash in different envelopes for gas, groceries, etc. We always draw bills from the account, since paying electronically goes through quicker than a check. Using the envelope system also helps to limit spending.


Don't Pay Full Price for ANYTHING

Obviously, there are some things you need that are never discounted. However, with a little planning ahead, you can get what you need for less. Here are some ways to save money that I've gleaned from both literature and personal experience:

-Buy things out of season, especially expensive things like coats and bathing suits, and holiday items. Buy you Christmas tree after Christmas, your Halloween stuff right after it goes on clearance, etc.

-Buy things USED. Everybody has too much stuff, and they're always trying to get rid of it. We've bought a washer and dryer, used it, and then sold it again for profit later. Craigslist and local facebook classifieds are awesome for finding things cheap!

-Watch your grocery ads and plan your meals around them, especially if it's meat that is on sale. Meat often accounts for a big chunk of the average grocery bill.

-Buy from the clearance rack, thrift stores, and discount clothing stores. It may take you more time to find what you need, but it's well worth it in the end.

-Plan ahead. If there's something you know you're going to need, save for it, and then wait for it to go on sale.

-Don't finance. There are certain things, like a house or car, that you may have to take a loan out for, but usually financing something like a new TV will only bite you later if you can't get it paid off in time. You don't know what money you'll have in the coming months, but you always (hopefully) know what you have now.

And Finally...

Of all the money-saving advice and tips I've gathered, it's important to remember that discipline is required to reap the benefits of smart spending. We have to learn to say two things:

No. 
&
Not right now.

It seems that every time I utter these words (and follow through with action) I save money. When I see a shirt on sale and I say no, I only feel remorse until I walk out of the store. "AW MAN!" suddenly becomes "Oh well!" and it feels good. I know how to save money, but the choice to be wise or foolish is completely up to me. 

In 2014, I hope to be wise!




Tuesday, December 31, 2013

Obligatory New Year's Post

2013 has by far been the biggest year in my life. Here are some things that I did this year!

Had my first Valentines day with an actual date, and a handsome one at that ;)


Completed the single biggest accomplishment of my academic career: Senior Independent Study


Planned a wedding... yeah... now that was a good time...

Saw one of my best friends marry the boy she had been crushing on since before freshman year even started. Here was a typical girl-talk before bedtime dialog:
Éowyn: I wish that vending machines could dispense bacon and husbands.
Me: You could always just marry Ben...
*silence*
*HYSTERICAL LAUGHTER*
Lo and behold, four years later...


I started Airsofting, and even joined a team with Hubby

Being intimidating is not my strong suit. 

I had the opportunity to do some really cool photography for some great people, including a wedding! Thanks, Alyssa :)




Shortly thereafter, I got married myself! I truly believe that God creates someone for everyone, and I definitely found my someone :)



'Cause that's how we roll...
After that, we went on an awesome cruise and Hubby stepped foot off US soil for the first time!


I started two new jobs, one at a wood shop, and one at A&P Gear Co., an airsoft store.

Went to my first Indians game!
OMERGERHD BERSBAHL!!!

Spent Christmas away from home for the first time ever.


And many more things that would take way to much time to list :)

While this year was the best, toughest, and most eventful of my life so far, I have a feeling 2014 will give this year a run for its money.

Here's to a New Year, and may the odds be ever in your favor.

Oops.

I mean, happy new year!





Thursday, December 26, 2013

Post-Christmas Post

Let me start by saying that I hope your Christmas was as wonderful as mine :) It was certainly different for me this year, as it was both the first Christmas in Ohio and my first Christmas away from my immediate family. While different, it was still wonderful! Christmas eve Adam and I were both off, so we got some work done around the house, and made our last-minute preparations.


Our lovely Christmas tree :)
We also went over to Adam's parents' house on Christmas Eve and had a wonderful dinner, complete with purple potatoes! Naturally, I dubbed them "Willy Wonka Potatoes". We then watched Jack Frost and The Christmas Shoes, both of which made me cry.

I know, I know--- they're just movies.


Plot: Dying parent reminds other parent how important family really is.
Plot: Dead parent comes back to show his family how important they are to him.

Christmas day we slept in, and then headed over to Grandma and Grandpa Ladrach's for Christmas lunch. After stuffing our faces, we opened presents and visited. It was great!

Best Things About Christmas are: Family

FOOD

And dessert of course!

Adam and I got some awesome presents this year, thanks to the generosity of our families. Adam loved his shirt from my mom, which he so flamboyantly modeled for us in front of the Christmas tree.

My husband, the model.
So, so silly!



After we got home we FaceTimed my sister's family and my mom, and prepared our things for the indoor airsoft event today. 


Finally, we wrapped up our Christmas with a viewing of Christmas Vacation and some homemade Eggnog. All in all, I am so thankful for Christmas. Not only did we receive the gift of a savior, but an opportunity to spend time together each year to remember the important things, to say no to work for once, and spend time with family. I hope you all had a Christmas as merry as mine was, and have a happy New Year!